Now . Future

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No time to write.
Not even have time to think what to write.
Because I'm SHORT OF TIME!!!!!!!

Post called...and this was the last in Obs posting.
Something weird happened at 4.30a.m.(try to tell the incidence in layman terms)
A 24 weeks pregnant lady gave birth to a preterm baby when the cervical was not in favourable state (not fully dilated). She suddenly bear down and it was so unpredicted!
A baby born with no spontaneous breath, no active movements, no cry and with eye closure. Bruish colour noted over the right shoulder due to injury during delivery. Not forget to mention it was a breech presentation. (Buttocks comes out 1st before the head)
The weird thing was there was a visible heart beat but it couldn't be auscultated by stethoscope.
According to a Paediatrician, it was a muscle contraction instead of heart beat.
But why the contraction is confined to left chest wall but not a generalised one? 1st question.
The underlying causes of contraction? neurological deficit? electrolyte imbalance? 2nd ques.
Ultrasound before delivery revealed that active fetal heart beat was present..so....? 3rd ques

From clinically examination, the fetus was annouced to death due to extreme prematurity.
The fetus for sure cannot survive although resuscitation is taken place.
But how to explain those weird phenomenons???
Hmm...i dunno, Paediatricians dunno and so far nobody knows as I know.

Straight IV bolus of oldtown white coffee after post called to attend Dr. Siley class..
On-call in Obs was an agony and thanks God this was the last in my medical student's life.
NOT for future doctor's..
Sigh~~~

I hate the feelings of being trapped...
For sure Every1 likes freedom and dislikes being restricted.
Although I hate it but I prefer to be in this predicament forever.
Sounds self torturing.
The problems is I have been trapped in the Holiday Mood!!!
Haiz...Holiday is going to end soon.
Have to face Prof PC Tan within 5 days time.
Tension and be ready for that!
No more long holidays after this.
Still wanna shout out that,
"I like being trapped!!!!"

Mum told me that Bro was washing my car. Again??

My bro treats me so good that he helps me washing my car and even paying the petrol. Having a Bro is really great. Hehe. Of course I have to ‘help’ him to wash my car. That’s the car that I always drive what. It’s my job and NOT his.

Then Bro suggested polishing my car. Haiz… Feeling so lazy to move on.

Polishing car is really consuming energy and time. Although only do once half a year, but still reluctant to start. In a being forced situation, I started the mission impossible with Bro’s aid….

Within 2 hours time, mission accomplished (washing+polishing). Waja looked shiny under the sun. Woohoo…

But it was tiring. Lesson I learned this morning is every task will become easier once you go through the initiating part. So the most difficult thing is the starting point.

Seeing my shiny Waja.. Feeling proud of it...^_^

My relationship with my Bro has been polished as well. Thanks Bro!

Feel so sorry for what i have done...
I admit that it's my fault. I shouldn't do so at first.
I knew it did hurt you and I swear I wun do the same mistake again.
Why I have disappointed u in such silliest way?
I couldn't forgive myself and how am i going to hope that u can forgive me?
You responded to my apology with teary eyes..
Gush of guilt and sorrow in deep of my heart at that moment...I feel so so so Sorry.
SORRY, MUM.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME...

Woke up at 8am and had breakfast together with family.
It was so unexpected that my old friends (we know each other since kindergarten...)
Banana and Da Ming (nicknames are used here coz we're more comfort with that. ha) came to ask me for breakfast tea..=.= Again i had to go out with them since i din have any solid reasons to reject them.. So, went to lim teh at the nearest shop.
Then, the climax was Swee Ping was there!!! Wow!!!
The last time i met her was at Standard 6. She was transferred to Seremban's school after that.
We totally lost contact since then. Furthermore, she moved to seremban that time.
It was so surprised meeting with her at such an OLD coffee shop. hehe.
She came back for holidays for a month. She just completed her pharmacy course in Australia for 4 years. Lots of fun to talk with her..
We still can chit-chat non-stop although not meet up for so long.
Everything remain the same except one thing makes change is she becomes prettier..haha..^.^ Nice 1..

My hometown frenz, Cheong, Hau, Huey shan came as well..And we decided to go sing K at bahau tonight.. Yo,this is my first time singing K there..Hopefully the K's setting there is good enough..
If not, sure causes sound pollution..haha
I'm not the one causing it ,ok??lolz

Finally here comes the Raya holidays!!
Packing and preparing to go home. ^.^ And not forget to bring books back to study.=.=
Jz as i mentioned before, will have long case exam after holidays. Haiz...

Holiday is the only golden opportunity for me to take enough rest and recharge since after 3 weeks of busy Obs posting.
During my 1st and 2nd year, sure I was in excited state when near the holidays.
Because it's time for enjoying and relaxing. Really miss those time so much.
But then now in final year, everything is going totally different.
Holiday is for studying in such a way that i no need to go medical wards to clerk patients.
No ward rounds, no tutorial teaching, no on-call roster and etc.

I feel quite satisfied now with all this during holidays.
Try to get used to this since entering clinical years.
Holiday becomes shorter and duty becomes heavier from time to time.

Holiday is just for me to take a deep breath after facing the heavy workload in the congested hospital.
I learn to appreciate holidays although it's a short one.
Time for me to accompany my family after 3 weeks of being away from them.
I realize that i will spend lesser time to be with them in the future once i become HO.
It's a sad thing to say anyway.
But i know that they are always there standing behind me and giving me fully support.
I will not disappoint YOU ALL. I promise!!

Holidays!!! but still need to study....
Being self-discipline. MUST!!!