Now . Future

Feel so sorry for what i have done...
I admit that it's my fault. I shouldn't do so at first.
I knew it did hurt you and I swear I wun do the same mistake again.
Why I have disappointed u in such silliest way?
I couldn't forgive myself and how am i going to hope that u can forgive me?
You responded to my apology with teary eyes..
Gush of guilt and sorrow in deep of my heart at that moment...I feel so so so Sorry.
SORRY, MUM.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME...

Woke up at 8am and had breakfast together with family.
It was so unexpected that my old friends (we know each other since kindergarten...)
Banana and Da Ming (nicknames are used here coz we're more comfort with that. ha) came to ask me for breakfast tea..=.= Again i had to go out with them since i din have any solid reasons to reject them.. So, went to lim teh at the nearest shop.
Then, the climax was Swee Ping was there!!! Wow!!!
The last time i met her was at Standard 6. She was transferred to Seremban's school after that.
We totally lost contact since then. Furthermore, she moved to seremban that time.
It was so surprised meeting with her at such an OLD coffee shop. hehe.
She came back for holidays for a month. She just completed her pharmacy course in Australia for 4 years. Lots of fun to talk with her..
We still can chit-chat non-stop although not meet up for so long.
Everything remain the same except one thing makes change is she becomes prettier..haha..^.^ Nice 1..

My hometown frenz, Cheong, Hau, Huey shan came as well..And we decided to go sing K at bahau tonight.. Yo,this is my first time singing K there..Hopefully the K's setting there is good enough..
If not, sure causes sound pollution..haha
I'm not the one causing it ,ok??lolz

Finally here comes the Raya holidays!!
Packing and preparing to go home. ^.^ And not forget to bring books back to study.=.=
Jz as i mentioned before, will have long case exam after holidays. Haiz...

Holiday is the only golden opportunity for me to take enough rest and recharge since after 3 weeks of busy Obs posting.
During my 1st and 2nd year, sure I was in excited state when near the holidays.
Because it's time for enjoying and relaxing. Really miss those time so much.
But then now in final year, everything is going totally different.
Holiday is for studying in such a way that i no need to go medical wards to clerk patients.
No ward rounds, no tutorial teaching, no on-call roster and etc.

I feel quite satisfied now with all this during holidays.
Try to get used to this since entering clinical years.
Holiday becomes shorter and duty becomes heavier from time to time.

Holiday is just for me to take a deep breath after facing the heavy workload in the congested hospital.
I learn to appreciate holidays although it's a short one.
Time for me to accompany my family after 3 weeks of being away from them.
I realize that i will spend lesser time to be with them in the future once i become HO.
It's a sad thing to say anyway.
But i know that they are always there standing behind me and giving me fully support.
I will not disappoint YOU ALL. I promise!!

Holidays!!! but still need to study....
Being self-discipline. MUST!!!

Haiz..After the MMC talk jz now, thought want to watch G-Force, but end up with watching Gamers pula..=.=
Went to GSC only realized that the premiere of G-Force is on 17/9 (tomorrow)..#$%%^*&
Seems like no other nice movies are released recently.
Finally we chose to watch Gamers...
Walau eh, I nearly fell asleep during the early part. Felt giddiness as well..(you will know once u watch it..XD)
Then the movie's storyline is a bit weird and some parts are so disorganized.
Not advisable t0 spend even RM7 to watch this type of SUCkZZZZ movie..
I will rate it 8.....out of 100..haha

Planned to have K session with buddyline initially. But being told that Edmund is going to sit for his exam. So the plan is being postponed to unknown date. Sigh...
All the best to CDE!!

Going to Banting soon! Here i come, Banting~

The title stated was my first response after knowing he is the one who's going to take my EOP long case exam.
Haiz..Y i'm not getting Dr. Cipto or Dr. Valli?
Prof Tan is not malignant examiner as what other coursemates told me.
But the way he conducts exam is really bringing u tonnes of tension...

- Staring at u and waiting for ur answer although u seriously cannot recall it.
- Must make a wise guess for those unfamiliar questions even though u dunno the answer.
Give a stupid answer is unforgiven.
- The body size of the examiner is really an issue to deal with. OoopSss...
Anyway, it seems like a warming up for me before i go to sit for my final next year.
I dun care. Jz try my best and no regret!!!

Going home this friday..and fetch my sis back. ^^
She bought a broadband recently..So.....hehe

I hope i'm not going to have fun during raya holiday. Because..........
Prof Tan is standing in front of me. He is staring at me and waiting for my smart guess...arghhh.....

Long case is straight after raya holiday..T_T

Post call yesterday in labour ward.
Imagine u have to stay there to clerk cases, conduct delivery and repair episiotomy from 7am to 3pm. Take a break for 2 hours. Then have to cont from 6pm to next day 7am. Lastly have to attend seminar from 8 to 10.30am.

This is a real oncall just like a Houseman Officer(HO) will have. Needless to say,they have to continuosly working for 36 hours. Of course their workload is far more tiring.
Haiz, i cannot cope with this kind of life even a day. It KILLS me!!! I'm completely exhausted after the call and seminar. Frankly speaking, i totally not ready for a doctor's hectic life. The paid is not proportionate to what u have sacrificed!! RM100 per call??? it's not worth at all.
So?

Just accept it because those patients out there need our help. This is my choice. I never regret for that. Who is going to help them except us? We are qualified to study in this field and the prerequisite is we must have the CARING HEART and DO NO HARM for patients.

The lessons that i gained yest call was I learn repairing the episiotomy. Yay!!!
Layer by layer...apex,mucosa,muscle and skin!!!
Of cause with local anaesthetic.Otherwise, i will be suffering from tinnitus or hearing loss..haha