Now . Future

末期癌症的病人是绝对有权知道本身的病情。
家属更不该隐瞒病人，该知道隐瞒事实，只是浪费他剩余的光阴。
病人其实远远比家属更了解自己的病痛，只是他不知到底严重至什么地步。
低落沮丧的过渡期是必然的。
病人了解自己，才能够积极面对疗程。
坚强活下去，才能战胜癌魔。
若被瞒在鼓里，他对自己的病情一知半解，会胡乱猜测，会茫然无助，又如何能面对无法预知的明天呢？
无论怎么说，这一切全由家属决定该不该坦然告诉病人。
正确的想法与决定是主宰生命的关键。

I'm so worrying about you. Why it's you to have this problem?
Just a few days fever. Why can't it's just a viral fever?
Why all the triple cell lines have to drop?
First come to my mind is for sure not a good thing. Needless to say that I hope it's not happen on you.
I have seen so many patients out there in the ward suffering under the treatment modalities.
Will the traditional medication help?
Will all the superstition thingy come to play a role?
As a medical profession, I shouldn't believe in this but I hope it does help.
Because I don't know. There was no further investigation done.
I hope not. I couldn't accept it if it does happen.
I'm praying here for you. I'm very worried and I know the others' feelings are same with me.
You're not deserved for all these.
You should be fine and you sure will.

Long time since I last updated my blog before sitting for my finale.
The reason why is because I had failed for the first time in my study life and this made me anhedonia for quite some time.
This will be the first and the last that I promise to myself.
I dun wan to let this recur 6 months later. My mood was very very bad when I got the result. Why I have to suffer all this before I start my working life?
Being advised and consoled by my family and friends, I know that I have to continue my journey no matter how hard the challenge is.
The most difficult part is facing the failure and accept it!!
I have to and I must!!
Ya. Of course stressed. But stressed can become desserts if I can reverse it.
I hope so. ^^
Thanks for all those who always support me!!

1 day left!!!
My brain is so saturated now...
And as expected I couldn't finish studying all.
But what can I do??
GOD bless me!!
I really need YOUR blessings!!!
神啊！救救我吧！！！

想起这个笔筒，是在我念中三时，朋友送我的生日礼物。
所以它已跟随我大概有十年了吧。
无论我去到任何角落念书，我都会将它摆在我的书架，正面着我。
在马六甲高校或在马大，都是一样。
看起来还是相当新颖吧。全归于每个星期都会擦拭它的功劳。
我总相信有它的存在，才会有今天的我。
这次希望它能让我顺利挨过这一次大考吧。
信心真的很重要。但偏偏我缺乏信心，尤其是在医生/讲师面前。
可能是知识方面不到佳，只好在这最后关头咬紧牙根，拼命啃书。
运气在医科考试方面真的能够扭转一切。相信我这是个事实！
“你是最好的，你知道吗？”
“你是最好的，你知道吗？” 取自周星驰在《少林足球》对赵薇的对白。
我也常这样告诉自己。没错。 至少能让紧张的情绪舒缓些。^^
这或许不是真的。但并非不可能。
我才发现在考试周，我写部落格的次数变更频繁了。XD
好了，继续奋勇作战！！

Time flies. 1st study week is going to end soon.
My study progress is too slow liao. Cham...T_T
Wake up at 7am to practise short case EOD. Actually our study group is quite efficient if compared with other groups.
Each of us can do 2 cases per session including discussion. Thumbs up for my group!!!^^
But then the revision part really sucks.. I realize that I have not enough time ady.
How???!!!!
Keep on thinking of travelling thingy although haven enter exam hall.
Please la. Concentrate 1st.